So I went to Scotland for 6 months and had the best 6 months of my life. I met great people and made amazing memories. But now I'm back at boring old school trying to keep my head above water and doing a half-assed job of everything. Things were so perfect in Scotland (I'm sure part of this is that I'm only remembering the wonderful parts and none of the awful parts, but it sure seemed great) and things seem so sucky here. Now today I get an e-mail from one of my friends in Scotland saying everything has gone to crap there. Two of our good friends are having just awful things happen to them and everyone is fighting with eachother. So I immediately looked up plane tickets to get there ASAP which is ridiculous since I'm broke and have 5 weeks of school left. But at the same time I feel like hey they miss me and I miss them and hate my life here so why not go back? Granted the school I went to there is terrible academically and the exchange rate sucks thanks to W letting the $$ fall but all I want to do is go back and leave my life here behind. The question is how do I decide if this is really what I want and would really be good for me OR if this is just an instance of "The grass is always greener" and if I went back I'd be having the same issues, just reversed. This whole issue connects to the bigger issue of why can I never appreciate how good I have it until I don't have it anymore? Any advice on how to change that? How come I'm never particularly happy when I'm in the moment, but when that moment passes I remember it as almost perfect??
I'm sorry to add another rant to the long list of rants on this site but I feel a bit calmer having just vented all of this and having realized that I need to somehow make myself happy with my life now and plan how to make my future happier rather than constantly looking back to my idealized past. Right?
Posted by anonymous at May 9, 2005 11:23 AM | TrackBackUhhhh...if you have the opportunity and the ability to flee the USA before W flushes it completely down the toilet, take it.
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