It always ends up this way. It's not the "type" of people I am attracted to, to be friends with, it's not the circumstances that set things up a certain way, it's all me, it's always me. Such that when she (or he), who is usually my best friend at the time, starts to get competitive and "wins" over a mutual friend, and I just back off in a sort of honorable, too-good-for-that-business sort of way. I bring it all upon myself, because half of it is in my head away, so I push everyone away and then here I am again, all alone, listening to weepy music and doing nothing about it. That is my way of doing things.
These terrible thoughts go through my head.. she's uglier, and less interesting, and whiny, and bossy... so why don't people like me? Am I less human? Am I a bad person? It's as if, living in this hole these few years where I have isolated myself, I have missed some significant change that happened to all other human natures, and don't have the ability to comprehend all of these superior people, who are human, and good and nice and don't think these terrible thoughts.
But I deal with it, until it happens again, and again, and again...
Posted by anonymous at August 14, 2005 4:41 AMAre you a scorpio?
Posted by: at August 15, 2005 7:25 PMI'm guessing pisces.
Posted by: at August 16, 2005 7:11 AMYes, good call. A pisces indeed. Well, each is
a water sign anyway. Submersed in emotion and inner turmoil.
Yea us pices are very dramatic, and often horridly beat upon by those we love....mostly because we make bad choices, and try to "fix" or take care of people too often. I finally said screw it, screw them its all about me now. Less friends, but less pain as well.
Posted by: at August 18, 2005 6:43 PM