November 3, 2005

musings...

so, we r all here...the whiners. i visit this site often reading what others say, and knowing that i'm not alone. Yohoo! i have so many others who are as miserable as me...is that something really to rejoice about? are we a world doomed to misery? why cant i find sustained happiness? is there anything like sustained happiness?

i know the reasons for my misery. i know all the theories..i'm so interested in my misery, that i'm learning about them. yes, i'm a student of psychology. i've always loved the subject. but, now i'm seriously starting to doubt my interests. it just doesnt seem fair to attempt to sort out everybody's life, when i cant seem to get my life straight. they say that shrinks are the most screwed...but, it just does not seem right to me to continue in this field until i learn to "live".

i have parents who i really dont get along with, yet claim to love them to death. yeah, i do..i do love them...but, why do i have a problem...its becuase i dont know how to love them and me at the same time..for some strange reason, i turned out to be different from the rest of the family members..so, in my quest to fit in, i would much rather love them and not me. i do this with everytrhing and everybody...why? i hate who i see in the mirror...i dont like me anymore. and, doing stuff that i dont want to do makes me hate me more...

i am 23. i am an adult...its high time to cut the chains...but, i dont..what am i scared of?

Posted by anonymous at November 3, 2005 10:12 AM
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I've got news for you. You can't love anybody unless you love yourself first.

I have more news for you...at 23, you're not an adult, you're merely legally an adult. Quit worrying so much...you've got plenty of time to find your focus and figure it all out. Relax. When you quit trying quite so hard, things begin to fall into place.

And why the quest to fit in? Is that why you're doing things you don't want to do? To hell with that. Be who you are...once you've figured out who that is, anyway. Don't fit in---stand out.

Posted by: at November 3, 2005 6:45 PM
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