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Hey Man don't do it get some medical help for your depression. find someone to serve the joy you find there will be a healing balm. turn the corner to a new dispostion. chnage your enviroment get away.
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Most people don't understand depression or what it's like to live with it. They think you are being irrational, but you aren't. If they suggest medical help, they do have one point. Much of it has to do with your body chemistry.

Perhaps you see no reason to try to fix things or get help. You don't want to talk to somebody who is clueless and could not possibly understand. You don't need them to give you reasons that make no sense, because you have already thought about those things, and they are the ones who can't understand.

On the other hand, if there is an issue with body chemistry that can be fixed with medicine, you have nothing to lose by trying. If it doesn't help, you can always kill yourself tomorrow, and you've lost nothing. In fact, putting it off in general is a low risk option. You may have nothing to live for, but you have nothing to die for either.

Those resources you think you are wasting are yours just as much as they are mine, by the way.

As for pain, consider that killing yourself will have a lifelong effect on everybody you know. It will hurt them for the rest of their lives, and even friends or casual acquaintances won't take this well. If you think you are ending your own pain, fine. You probably are. But if you think you are ending pain for others, you are delusional. You would be increasing it. Don't make the mistake of assuming that their mental framework is the same as yours or that they would see things the way you might if the shoe were on the other foot. Killing yourself almost never makes life better for those you know. Unless you are Hitler, you can expect to cause lifelong pain and depression in those you know if you do kill yourself. At least have the courtesy of telling them that you are moving away, and then kill yourself somewhere else. Then at least they will have some hope.

Well, I had the same situation you have right now. I didn't want to live anymore, not because I was sad, but because I didn't see a point in living. Bascially, I said screw it, I'm just gonna live until I die, and I'm pretty much crazy now.

I say just roll with life, what else is there to do? I have no self worth also but am to much of a coward to end it. I hope I never wake every time I go to sleep. Just sit in a room turn on the tube and watch the decades roll by. You will be dead before you know it.

But if you insist:

Your asking alot, minimum pain ,no gun or drugs. I suggest car running in a closed garage. The goal is to overdose on carbon monoxide. You just fall asleep. Be sure no one will find you for several days and the car has a full tank. If your found or the car runs out of gas to soon you will just be severly brain damaged. You may want to tape up the seams around the windows and stuff rags around the garage door to prevent all the leaks possible. You know what they say "If your going to do something do it well."

The other option is the old classic, hanging. The trick to it is using a noose that can easily support your weight and stretches a minimum amount. The goal is a fatal basal brain injury. You need to fall far enough to get enough speed to break your neck and separate your brain from your spinal cord, otherwise you will just strangle and you will not fill your first requirement. I suggest a very heavy rope (a few wraps of electrical cord might work but it will strech some on impact and alot over time) and a 8-9 diameter inch tree branch 14-16 feet off the ground. Set it up so your sitting on the branch and have enough slack to free fall 3-4 feet. That's about 6-7 foot fall if your average height still with a few feet to the ground. Don't use wire on any thing to thin or it may just cut into your throat and your first requirement is missed again.

Good Luck on whatever you decide:)

I too see no point in living. I am not financially independent nor emotionally. I have a husband who is a mama's boy and sometimes he has cheated on me just to please or support his mom. I donot want to be more insulted and abused in my life. I want to die before being insulted or cheated again. But, I get scared of killing myself. I want to know the less pianfull and effective method of killing oneself