I'm going to just start typing. I may sound confused or unsure but I'm going to be open and exposed. I've been stressed out A LOT lately. It's been affecting my sleep and my attitude. Sometimes I can be set off so easily. My financial situation hasn't changed. Living from paycheck to paycheck. Hardly anything in the savings. It's a darn good thing I'm handy and can fix things because I can't afford to buy replacements. My credit is shot. At one point 4 years ago, I lost my job and had to deplete everything to feed the family. Thankfully, I've been steadily employed. I'm just now catching up but my credit was affected. I make decent money but no bank will give me a loan to buy a house - this pains me that I can't even buy a house and I'm in my early 40's. I feel like I'm spiraling down this hole of hopelessness. Thankfully, my wife is understanding...but i wish I could give her more. She deserves more. I feel like nothing will change for the better. These are things that bother me and eat at me when self-pity sets in - when I let it. I want to choose to think positive. I have shelter and food and clothing. I need to get over myself. Just know this...you're not the only person who feels useless and hopeless. If I could tell you it'll get better, I would. I know it will. I tell myself that. Don't give up. Don't give up hope. Dear God, help me. Help me to trust and have hope.
Posted by anonymous at December 4, 2005 9:17 PMHow disturbingly comforting it is to hear from someone who is in the same downward spiral as I am in. I hope you have enough hope for the both of us.
Posted by: Madame Currie at December 4, 2005 9:28 PMMadame Currie. Thank you..and yes, I'll hope for the both of us. Blessings.
Posted by: at December 4, 2005 9:41 PMIf your wife doesn't have a job yet, please welcome her to the 21st century.
My mother became a pediatric nurse after us kids grew up, and she loves it.
Posted by: at December 5, 2005 1:21 AMYou really are in the same boat as many, many Americans are these days, as the middle class disappears. But you have a wife who has stood by you through the hard times. No amount of money can replace that.
Posted by: at December 5, 2005 7:04 AMoh poor me.. bla bla.. y compare to those more fortunate.. ? try the other way around my alive and breathing compadre
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