I am sorry i broke ur heart. I am sorry that i cant be what u want me to be. i am sorry that i wasted ur love. from this day forth, i cease to live. but, i will survive. i let u go, and yet i wish that u would call me. i wish that u will not let me go. why is it so hard to let u go? why, after all these years i still love u so? why is it that after all our fights, argumants and misunderstanding..i wont nothing more than to be with u? u make me complete. i used to call u my soul mate, my best friend. u hated it...u wanted to be lover...u were...except that i was scared to acknowledge it...and now, without you in mn my life...i am bereft of a lover and a best friend. i am alone and i feel bare. i think that this is good. it will make me strong, and i hope that it will make ur life better. but, i am scared...i am scared that i ruined ur life...i try to live without you..but, all i can do is survive. i con mysellf into thinking that i am happy...i say that life is better alone. but the truth is that u r my life...and, i hate u and me for that. i was young..and, so were you...two souls in desperate need of love...sustenance. we fed off each other's misery and turned it into something beautiful. and now all we have left are memories. i spend hours thinking of what might have been...i spend hours reminiscing. why cant i give myself what i want? why cant i acknowledge that what i want is not what is ideal...but, i love it!! yes, i love u...u say that i've become distant...what else am i to be...u live across the ocean, i yearn for u...u tell me promise me foreve, and u will join me here....why?? dont u want now? dont u want me? u say u do...but, i cant promise me...u see u dont understand that my world is not my own...thats funny...considering that we have been together 5 years...yes, 5 years..mohd...thats a lot. why did we stay together that long? were we that miserable? and now, i cant keep up with u any more..all i want is happiness, which i cant seem to offer...so, forgive me...my friend, coz i never meant to break ur heart. yet, i know i have...and, i cant live with that. so, if i never see u again..know that i've loved u..and i still do..know that my life has been made better by ur presence...
Posted by anonymous at December 19, 2005 8:14 AMYou know, you'd be better off if you used the language properly. Because you've made all of your feelings and deep thoughts nothing but lazy, cheap gibberish.
Posted by: Just me at January 1, 2006 6:59 PM