So what if all of those fucking bitches have got early entry to their colleges and i dont ? What's wrong with them, telling me about the high quality lectures they have and all. Now i can't screw my results up, and i can't disappoint anyone anymore. Everyone tells me there's no fucking future in the arts here, but i want to study arts. So what am i going to do ? Is it my fault that i can't make it in the education system here ? I mean, i don't know if i even have a future. Just kill me; i don't want to stay here and face my parent's disappointed faces. What's the point if they don't seem to understand ? And i even might be pregnant, and my boyfriend's not really helping, all he does do is just say that he'll be there for me, but is he really ? Honestly. If i get an abortion will i ever be able to concieve again ? Fuck, i feel hopeless. I'm screwed, inside out and rightside up.
Posted by anonymous at January 24, 2006 7:14 PMAs far as I'm concerned, the arts are what push the world forward. Makes people think, approach things from different perspectives, broadens the mind and the ability to appreciate diversity.
Just because they got early entry to college doesn't make them anymore intelligent/able/successful than anyone else. Seriously, it means shit. If you have to go the long way round, and struggle to do what you want to do against everyone elses expectations, you're going to appreciate it more, and work harder to prove to yourself that it was worth your time. You don't have to prove anything to anyone else. This is hard to do, but it's most important that you put YOURSELF first.
If you are pregnant and decide to have an abortion, it doesn't mean you won't be able to conceive again... it's a grey area though. Talk to your doctor or nurse, or even an anonymous health advice centre. If you decide to continue with the pregnancy, it's not the end of your life, it's just an extra challenge, on top of the ones you already face, and can help you realise your priorities, that you have to look after you and yours first, Fuck what everyone else thinks you should do, do what you need/want to do, which is live Your life, not their life plan for you.
I've made a point of doing what I want all along, and although my last choice (a job I wanted) didn't work out as I expected, it was my choice, and don't regret it, as much as my parents tried to tell me they told me so, they didn't tell me anything half as valuable as what I learned in that job, and living the way I did. You can only disappoint others if you disappoint yourself. You are the most important person in your life. If you don't put you first, no one else will. No one can do as much for you as you can.
You will be fine, you will do what is right, for you.
You don't have to have an abortion, if indeed you are pregnant. Young women still give their babies up for adoption, and you have a choice as to whether it's an open adoption, where the adopting parents keep in touch and send pictures, etc. You made a mistake; you were careless about birth control. If you are pregnant, do the right thing, whatever that is for you, and be more careful about birth control from now on. And absolutely pay attention to the first commenter. That is some of the best advice I've ever seen.
Posted by: at January 25, 2006 10:51 AM