MY LIFE IS ONE BIG FUCK UP
wel... first i slept with my auntys boyfriend at a very young age, then she found out and never spoke to me or my close family since. i split her and my mum up even though they were the best of friends.
my gran died and my boyfriens cheated on me at the same time and told me on the phone while at the funeral!
he beats me up at least 3 times a week and i cant tell anyone
i cannot leave or he WILL kill me.
he made me have an abortion!!!
and is probably out cheating on me right now!!!
so i think i have every reason to hate my life!!
And who is to blame? YOU. No one can make you into a doormat without your permission. Are you staying with this guy to punish yourself for breaking up your family? I think you are. You've punished yourself enough, I think. You know darned well that he didn't "make" you have an abortion. It's your body and your decision. Take your bruised body down to the police station, have the guy arrested, get counseling, and for crying out loud, don't tell me you can't do that because you "love him." You hate your life because you hate yourself, and that is why you desperately need professional help. Please get it before it's too late.
Posted by: at January 29, 2006 9:57 AMYou've been abused and manipulated, and possibly been manipulative in return because it was the only way you knew how to look out for yourself. Find a womens refuge or hostel in a different town or city, and get out. Take as few possessions as possible and leave. This is the only way you can get your life back and make reparation with your family. You're not a bad person unless you allow other people to believe you to be.
And to the commenter above, you can be forced into abortion, fear is a powerful tool.