I get the results for my january university exams on tuesday. I KNOW I'm going to fail them, I didn't even write part of one of them that was worth 60%. I don't know what to do, I'm not sure this is fixable. I might have to start again next year, which means telling my parents I've failed, which means telling my parents I have depression and which also means that I've wasted quite a lot of money being here this year...my parents money too. I am so screwed. I tried, I really did try, but I'm so fucking unhappy
Posted by anonymous at February 4, 2006 4:03 PMThere's no point trying to push things when you're just not happy. I insisted to myself that getting onto the course that would get me into my degree would fix it all for me. It's bollocks. So having wasted a fair amount of my parents money, coming to terms with my depression, learning how to live with it, I'm now ready to start the course I wanted, and complete it.
It's not the end of the world if you don't do it this year. You have a future, it will be hard coming to terms with maybe not passing the exams, and facing up to the depression, but coming out the other side you'll be proud of yourself for being able to take it on and get through, rather than trying to hide.
The sooner you take it on, the sooner it won't defeat you.
Set yourself a goal, and write it down, or illustrate it, and keep it somewhere safe. Everytime something doesn't quite go to plan, or you feel a bit shit, take it out and look at it, re-read it, and re-iterate to yourself why you're doing what you're doing. It's for you, it's to be happy.
Why on earth are you afraid to tell your parents about your depression? It's not contagious; it's not something you picked up in the bad part of town, and it's nothing to be ashamed of. Most depression is caused by a chemical imbalance and can be treated. Please, tell them and get some help.
Posted by: at February 5, 2006 7:06 AM