Finally told him (again) that I couldn't continue seeing him with the way things stand, didn't go into detail as to the things, so he's probably confused, but I can't deal with it being an open relationship anymore, I'm too involved.
He said to let him know when I want to see him again, that he's not going to let me disappear.
I think he's expecting me to turn up this weekend (it's his birthday, having a party)
I don't think I've ever been so miserable. Can't sleep, cry spontaneously, sometimes I cry after winding myself up, other times I cry at the things I let him away with.
Men/boys, (maybe 'males' is a better label) are rubbish.
I'm really not interested in anyone else, at the same time, I'm really not interested in fucking other people by proxy.
So to other people a bit like me, as my sister said, the first time you walk out, you stay walked out. YOURE NOT ALLOWED TO GO BACK. Is bad for your health.
Posted by anonymous at February 9, 2006 5:40 AMI agree with your sister. If this guy truly cared about you he wouldn't want to share you with anyone else. Walk away.
Posted by: at February 9, 2006 6:21 AMThis guy believes that you will go back to him because he thinks sex with him is soo damn hot. Maybe it is but you want more so BE STRONG. You want to be exclusive and you have the right to have that in your life.
BE STRONG! You can do it.
Posted by: at February 9, 2006 6:18 PMI like you people! I was wavering a bit, but the second comment particularly hit the nail on the head. Have to take some stuff back to him tomorrow, I shall keep your comments in my head on a loop.
Posted by: at February 9, 2006 7:11 PMAn "open relationship" is no relationship at all. There's no commitment other than his commitment to have everything he wants.
Posted by: at February 10, 2006 7:22 AMI never did the open relationship thing, altho I think my ex wanted me to. Instead I was cut loose with the statement "you can come back after you find yourself." I found myself happier without him than I ever was with him, although it took months to get to that point.
I was the same, crying all the time, not sleeping, etc. It passes, it sucks, it hurts like hell, but it passes. And it leaves you stronger for it.
Posted by: at February 11, 2006 10:52 AMhey! 'males' make 48% of the world! that's one massive rubbish tip.... no actually men are not rubbish. Some are.
Posted by: at February 16, 2006 2:39 PM