Anonyblog

What's so bad about being alone?

There came a point, I'm not sure when, that I decided to embrace my life and lifestyle. See, I've always had very few friends, I grew up homeschooled and unsocial, and even now I go to a tiny, brand new college with barely any people in it. And that school is in another state, a forty minute drive from where I live, so any friends I might make in school, I'll never really see. I used to hate how few friends I had, I used to decidedly crave social interactions and a more physical nature with my friends. Not that for all my trying I ever got what I wanted. But now I find myself craving human contact less and ever increasingly less. It's gotten to the point where I don't really like being around people at all, they don't amuse, nor interest me in the least.

See, all my life I grew up thinking that not having any friends, never going out, all that anti social behavior was wrong. But now, now I kind of enjoy it. No caring about having to have a girlfriend, or making plans for the weekend. As sad as it sounds, I'm happier, and more free as a recluse, than I ever was attempting to fit in.

That's just something I found myself noticing lately.