I often wish I can feel numb.
This way, even though I can't feel joy and happiness in life, at least I will be oblivious to the pain that is inside.
It is only recently that I found which of the two I really like. For once, I felt the exhilaration again. But now, even that is gone.
Feels like its a form of vengence on the part of the world. I once avoided someone - now someone is avoiding me. Well then, keep your distance if it makes you uncomfortable. I won't force my presence on you - never meant for you to feel that way. I just wish that things didn't arrive at this irreversible juncture, where the situation now is so awkward, especially since we're all supposed to be friends.
I don't know what else to do and I've got no words left to say.
I'll just go back to pretending that everything's okay. Even if its not.
Now I'm numb.
Posted by: at April 23, 2006 8:28 AMI suggest trying some High Fravity beer. All you have to do is guzzle three bigg ass cans of the disgusting brew and all of your problemms will be over until you wake up.
Posted by: at April 24, 2006 8:27 AMor you could just stop being a walking Shakespearian tragedy.
Posted by: at April 24, 2006 4:05 PMOr you could ignore the jackasses. Things'll get better. Hang on to hope. That's all you got sometimes. ANd well honestly maybe sometimes numb ain't too bad. Just be careful.
Posted by: at April 24, 2006 9:24 PMClassical singer Russell Watson postpones his forthcoming UK tour after undergoing brain surgery...
Posted by: Kurtis Burkhart at November 16, 2006 2:39 PM