Such a big world. So many lonely people. So many in pain 24/7. I've been here a long time now. Times used to be good. I used to look forward to the next day. Now it is all shit and has been for years. It seems like I'm just waiting for life to be over yet I'm still young. Humanity disgusts me. I will never find a mate or have a family. I will go through the rest of my life with only a few friends that understand me. Females have lied and hurt me to the point where I don't care if I'm ever close to another one. Porn satisfies the primeval needs without the heartache. Really,there are few who have had their heart broken by a porn star,except when the dvd player gets jammed up. Self esteem. People want to encourage self esteem. What will happen to our porn industry? These girls just don't grow on trees. When you decide not to blow a goat or fuck a horse on the Internet just because your drunken father missed too many dance recitals where does that leave me on Friday night with my high speed connection? I'm sick of this shit! (lazy Boy,what a trip!) I've been told there are drugs,other than the ones that I get from the dark man on the corner, that can help me,change my attitude,make me stop smoking and drinking myself to death. I don't believe it. The problem is hereditary. My family is a bunch of dysfunctional drunks. It is my destiny to live my limited life in this fashion. Maybe the KodyBear can help me. I've heard that he heals people. Is he still on tour? Are his tour dates on his web page? Will he be at the Steely Dan show in Va. Beach on August 19?
I must-will(pronounced as one word) attend this show. I wish you all the best of luck in this fucked-up world.
Hereditary problems are precisely the ones that those drugs that don't come from the dark man on the corner are designed to fix. Why do you insist on being the architect of your own destruction? If nothing is ever going to get better for you, it's because you won't let it.
Posted by: at July 11, 2006 8:02 PMTo OP
His esteemed excellentness will sodomize your depression away. It seems that is the only solution for FUs like you.
Many people go through depression, and they have felt exactly the same way. You just have to know that things don't stay bad forever, and that you can change things around. You've probably heard this before, but spend some time thinking about it.
Your life means something. You could help people or do charity work, and you could end up affecting more people than you will ever know in positive ways. People who need help are grateful to the people they receive help from. If you volunteer at a homeless shelter or something of the like, you could make life-long friends and wakeup everyday knowing that you have made a difference in someone’s life. Years from now, you could look back on your life and say "I have helped many people; I have changed the world."