Tired. Tired of thinking of everything I have to do and will have to do. Soon going to have to go to college and get into one. Gotta try. Gotta fucking try. I'm sick of trying. It's all pointless in the end. Why not do something that actually matters and make your short time on this place worth living? I can't say that I haven't tried at something and been screwed over anyway, though. There is one thing is this world that I love that makes it worth living. That can actually push me to try so i can keep up and be with her. Maybe that's all anyone needs. Love. In some form atleast, to makes things worth while and living. But what if they slip away? Whatever it is you love? The result could be worse than the worse that was before it. Is it even worth taking the risk of pouring yourself into something that could ultimately brake you? Maybe the time that was there would be worth it, maybe not. I hope I don't find out. The thing that is love to me, or person I should say, controls every inch of how I feel. Maybe it's not smart to give yourself to someone that much. But maybe it is if they give you just as much, as long as it doesn't end.
Posted by anonymous at August 15, 2006 7:14 PMTake it from me....as an adult w/o a college degree...go to school and quit whining about it. If you don't you'll end up like me: working my ass off and getting paid next to nothing for it because I have no degree. It's the one thing I really regret not doing in my life. Trust me, you need to go!
Posted by: at August 16, 2006 12:28 PMAs to the above comment: Ditto. I wish I'd had the opportunity to whine about going to college, but instead I live a life exactly as described above: I work my ass off every day for next to nothing and have no hope of ever retiring because I can't afford to save anything on my weak paycheck.
Posted by: at August 17, 2006 4:05 AM