Sometimes depression leaks into my everyday life, which for the most part is not very depressed. But what if what leaks it doesn't leave? I don't like teetering in and out of depression. It's simple, there is a cure to my depression though I doubt it well ever happen. Do you ever wish you could not think about anything...just be. Just be there and go on but not care, or think. It's not like people would treat you any differently, it's just you wouldn't care, at all. I'm scared that I'm gonnna fuck something up with her because I can't get things right in my own head.
Posted by anonymous at August 24, 2006 6:36 PMBeware. I have suffered this for three years now and have come to the realization that no matter how much I want to I cannot have a relationship with anyone until I can get myself right. I have lived this last three years not caring about anything at all. It has only taken me into addiction and jail. And other Bears do look at you differently because they can no longer trust you if you don't care aboutr anything. I'm starting to care a little bit now but it is a slow process. Gotta get off the drugs. Gotta get off the booze and be the Bear I used to be. Only then will I find someone worthy of me.
His Esteemed Excellency Eminence Kody R Bear.
Posted by: at August 24, 2006 6:07 PMThose are the words Her Portliness Empress Dragon Lady has wanted to hear. She wants to hear them again and again, uninterrupted with the "I don't give a f**k" statements you've made lately. I hereby declare on this public but anonymous forum that His Rotundancy and I love His Excellency very, very much. We are quite pleased to hear that our lectures are finally getting through to you.
OP: take a lesson from the Bear's comment. And also from me, Her Portliness Empress Dragon Lady. Whatever you do or feel in life, do it for love of self, not of someone else. Never let your "Self" be defined in terms of someone else. Get things right in your own head before you go looking for love, because no one can love you until you love yourself. No one will believe in you until you believe in yourelf. If you have to be scared all the time that you're going to "fuck something up with her" because you can't get things right in your own head, then you are not ready for that or any relationship. It is not her job to heal you, either. It's yours. Good luck.
Posted by: at August 25, 2006 4:44 AMit's suprising how smart of a bear you are.
Posted by: at August 25, 2006 7:44 PMsounds like a bad overplayed tune from the no-talented Rihanna .
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Posted by: at August 29, 2006 10:52 AMi here violins!now pull yourself together you sorry piece of excrement.
Posted by: nobodyinparticular at August 30, 2006 10:12 AM