i sometimes wish i'd never been born at all.
i have no true friends. i have lots and lots of people i can make chit-chat with, but i have absolutely nobody who i can really talk to. and i have absolutely nobody who'll actually listen to me. health class is the most depressing thing ever because we talk about suicide and stress and body image. i am practically 17 and i've never had anyone have the slightest romantic interest in me. except once in 4th grade and he was scum. never hooked up with anyone, never dated anyone, and i've definately wanted to. just nobody ever wanted me. and i'm pretty normal. there really isn't any one thing that would make me completely un-likable. i went to therapy once for almost a year and hated every minute of it. i have a big secret. a really big one. and those people who i do sort of have, i can't trust that they'll still accept me for who i am. i get enough shit from people at school that i don't need this. i try to put myself into my work, into my school, into something to keep me busy so i don't have to spend time thinking about myself, but lately, it's been really hard. i just feel like everything i do is scrutinized to the point of a microscope and i'm cracking under the pressure. i would love a best friend. i've never had one. i just want someone to talk to. that's all.
Posted by anonymous at March 13, 2007 7:57 PMAs you've discovered, it's better to talk to complete strangers sometimes ... Anyway, I wouldn't worry, everybody knows that around mid-teens is one of the crappiest periods of one's life. (well, it was for me!) I bet you'll pull through just fine.
I'd bunk those "health" classes if I were you ... They sound mentally unhealthy.
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I probably can't be your best friend, but I'll be a cool internet friend. woo.
Posted by: N at March 14, 2007 8:46 AMAwww sweetie it will be okay. High school sucks for everyone. Its like a rite of passage to hafto suffer for 4 years before your real life can begin. Once you go to college, thats when things start to get kicking. Keep your chin up! All those people above seem pretty cool, and I it on good autority that Miss N does make a really good friend.
xoxo
JJ
Posted by: at March 14, 2007 10:31 AMMaybe it won't help you much but it has worked for me so, here is my piece of advice:if you're feeling lonely, you should try and find a subject you'd like to read about and spend time reading. Maybe it sounds dumb but I think culture is what can help you find this life is worth it. If you have nobody to talk to then read books, maybe you could try and read about ermits for instance it's a great comfort to read about people who chose to reject this world when you feel rejected ;) Maybe you'd like a lighter subject to read about, but remember you won't waste your time nor your life if you read and learn things and a book could be a better company than a boyfriend... Anyway, cheer up and be sure that you're not the only one feeling that way, I so often have the feeling that I don't belong too but I try and make the most of my time and if there is no one I can rely on, well, I'll keep going.
Wishing you the best, be strong and don't forget : reading is sexy!
So is fucking.
Posted by: at March 16, 2007 3:34 PMWho the hell is that telling a 17 year old that fucking is "sexy." Like they don't know already...sheesh.
Posted by: at March 16, 2007 7:36 PMOk I got an email account set up you can email me too if you want. Its JJTorque@yahoo.com.
xoxo
JJ
Posted by: at March 16, 2007 10:46 PMI thought they were 15 (practically 16) last commenter but one. And anyway, it was meant to be sarcastic.
So was mine fool.
Posted by: at March 17, 2007 9:04 PMNo it wasn't fool.
Posted by: at March 18, 2007 8:19 AMyes it was, fool.
Posted by: at March 18, 2007 7:27 PMIs this the part where we start saying, "No, YOU!"?
Posted by: at March 20, 2007 11:44 AM