For the frequent readers - you probably read my last post about the piggy, the ice and boyfriend.
It a few weeks ago, so I thought I would give you an update. I started to write this last night, but I couldn't think of how to word it. I got frustrated and told myself I didn't owe any of you any kind of explanation of how things were going since then. Although I still believe I don't need to update, I would still like to. I appreciated most of the feedback I got last time.
Since my last post, I've dropped more than ten pounds. I went from 235 to 223. I am not starving myself-- I am just eating smaller portions and healthier foods. I am very calorie concious and I learned to stop eating when I am full instead of finishing what was on my plate because I didn't want to waste the food. I was always taught that as a kid and now I have been able to break myself of that habit. I am not in so much of a rush to shove food down my throat. I cut my food into smaller pieces, prepare smaller portions and drink a lot of water to stay hydrated. I am also taking a multivitamin for women twice a day.
I don't fill my time with food anymore. I concentrate on my homework, organize my room, clean, file paperwork, go places with friends, and create art. In the past I felt guilty because I wasn't making anything, but now I am producing massive amounts of it as compared to before. I have also picked up new mediums and experimentation in clay sculpture.
Its really amazing the way things have changed. I feel like I control my life now and food no longer reigns supreme. Yes, I am still using, but not as frequently as you might think.
I am moving into a new apartment on my own in two months. My boyfriend will move in with me. I think last time I made him sound like a horrible person. But he's not that bad. So he has a preference for skinny girls... yeah, thats the way society is. That doesn't mean he doesn't love me. I mean, if he wasn't interested and was totally disgusted, he wouldn't have sex with me, right? Or stay with me for so long? (Since November 06)
Well, I hope everyone has a good St. Patrick's Day and an even better Spring Break.
Posted by anonymous at March 17, 2007 11:58 AMI think that you are on the right track as far as how to loose the weight you want to loose. However, I still think your boyfriend sounds like an ass. Guys will have sex with anything that moves. So I don't want you to think that just because you have sex with him that it means he loves you. It doesnt. Love is shown through actions. Basically what you have told us is he has no problem with lowering your self esteem by calling you fat but at the same time he enjoys having sex. It sounds to me like he's using you, but thats just me. Good luck with loosing the weight. Maybe you'll get lucky and loose another 200 lbs in the form of your boyfriend.....
Posted by: at March 17, 2007 4:57 PMMaybe you'll "loose" a giant stool and LOSE a stone or too.
Down to 219!!!
Posted by: at March 19, 2007 1:46 PMYou know what would be great?! If you lost all the weight you think you should and you looked REALLY hot and then you dumped your boyfriend. Serves him right.
Posted by: at March 19, 2007 3:02 PMDump your boyfriend? You really shouldn't go eating your boyfriend in the first place.
Since Nov '06? That's four or five months! You call that a long time? Sheesh.
Posted by: at March 22, 2007 6:52 AMWe've been offically together since then, we've been seeing eachother unofficially since October 04.
Posted by: at March 22, 2007 11:12 AM