I can't sleep. My mind is too busy. Busy with what? Drivel. A fast forwarding film clip of fuck only knows. Running along at warp speed. On and on, never ending. I shake my head. If it isn't one thing, it's always another.
I sit here and stare at the screen.
Minute after minute goes by.
-This forum has been good for me. A place in the Universe to express random and specific thoughts that I could never express anywhere else let alone TO anybody else. Some of my phantom distractions have actually diminished enough to leave a hole or blank space in my 'consciousness'. Just by expression here. Crazy, but I'm not complaining in the least. If the price is to continue coming back here, so be it in spades.-
I stare at the screen and ask silently; what? Just...what? The why, who, when, where and how will come later.
What do you want? What am I to do? Any reason is superflous. Doesn't matter. Just answer the above two what's.
The analogy is that of my head bumping up against an enormous wall. The answer is on the other side but there's no getting to that other side...for now. Life just patters along, like raindrops hitting a sidewalk. I close my eyes and breathe in frustration...and in weariness.
I'm sure I can hear the demons cackling out there in the fringe.
Bastards.
Posted by anonymous at January 2, 2008 10:59 PMI really enjoyed your writing
Posted by: at January 4, 2008 6:07 PMTry burning black candles to absorb energy and repel negativity, and wearing hematite for the same purpose.
Or maybe you're just schizophrenic...
Posted by: at January 5, 2008 6:03 AMWhere did you copy that post from?
Posted by: at January 5, 2008 6:35 AMElsie that was rude. Copied or not, doesn't matter. nope.
Posted by: at January 6, 2008 9:17 PMI enjoyed your writing also. I think there are a lot of people who can relate to this. Thanks.
Posted by: T.H. at January 15, 2008 1:47 PM