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Suicidal Abuse II

So I posted about my relationship with my boyfriend (john) who threatens to kill himself anytime I try to leave him. Well, the situation is much, much worse. I tried to break things off with him. I called him and told him that we could not be together anymore because he was unstable and I didn't need that in my life. I told him not to call me, or come by my house or place of occupation. After I ended the call, I changed all my phone numbers, and all the locks to my place. Things were okay for a few weeks, and then the unthinkable happened. I came home after picking my daughter up from school. She began to play with our cat outside while I went to my room to shower. John was not only inside my place, but in my room. My room looked like it had been ransacked with everything turned over or smashed into pieces. When I saw him my first instinct was to grab my daughter and get the hell out of dodge. I didn't get very far...at all. He began to push me around, all the while telling me that he had been watching me and he knows that I am seeing someone else. Now I have been spending a lot of time with a childhood friend (Travis), but we are NOT dating. He is just there to support me while I'm going through an emotional time. Anytime I tried to tell John what was going on he would just hit me and scream for me to shut up or he would kill me in front of my little girl. He raped me...he raped me while my daughter was in the front yard. He told me that if I told anyone he would do worse to my daughter, and kill Travis. He left and I was forced to try to explain the state of my room, and new bruises and cuts on my face. I went straight to the police. I told them what happened, filed a police report, gave a description and everything I knew about him. They tried going right away to his apartment but he had already moved. They went to his job and he was fired a week before. None of our mutual friends will tell me where he is. I have been too afraid to be alone, so my daughter and I have been living in Travis's spare bedroom. This morning all of his tires were slashed. We suspect that it was John but we couldn't be sure...but now I am terrified because I was talking with my daughter , and she told me that John has been coming to see her at recess and play with her. I am afraid for my life and my child's life and I just don't know what to do. Someone please give me ideas.