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I love my life

Why do i love my life? I don't know?

I'm 39 and have just left my very emotionally abusive 2nd husband. He beat me. A lot.

This is the 2nd time i have left a man. My first husband kept me in such poverty, he used to 'give' me £2.20 a day for travel to work and 2 cups of coffee while i was there. Those were my wages for working 12 hours a day, 6 days a week. It took me 16 years to leave him but i did it.

I walked out with nothing, no belongings at all but hey! i never had anything in the first place right? All i took was my 2 children.

I met another man and was with him for 8 years. We have 2 children (that makes 4 for me) but we also had another baby. He was born premature and only stayed with us for 10 mins. He weighed 1lb 3oz and was born at 25+2 weeks gestation.

I eventually left this man too, only a few weeks ago as it happens. I took the small children (the older ones are now 20 and 18) and went to a womens aid refuge, We now have our own place and all is well.

So why do i love life? I've been so deprived of food i weighed 7 stone, i've walked 7 miles to work and back again because i had no travel money, I've been beaten, kicked, punched, strangled, ignored, locked out my own home in the rain, had a hot chip pan thrown at me, had a miscarriage at 11 weeks, felt my son wriggle and then die in my arms, carried a tiny coffin with my son inside, been called every name possible, worn sandles in winter as i had no moey for other shoes.

So why do i love life? I have 4 beautifull children 3 boys and a girl and i'm free. Free of whatever it was that made me choose these men, free of god (he obviously has no cares for me) free of all negativity, free of depression. I know who i am now, i know that my life is upto me and lets face it.... what else can god (the twat) throw at me?

Posted by anonymous at April 9, 2008 3:34 PM