...and as if it weren't all enough, I had to witness a shooting today! WTF?! I was just minding my business and driving home and thinking how starving i am and how i probably won't eat anything when I get home just because when some fools go ahead and decide to shoot up some poor soul at a corner gas station!! I witnessed a shooting! I mean this isn't the first time I've seen shooting anyways but i wasn't fucking expecting it and that's what pisses me off. I don't want to live in a place where I have to be fucking paranoid all the time. I want to be able to drive home through town and not worry about little fucking mullos tearing up everything in their path. I saw the gun firing. I saw his arm held out and i saw that bright white light, like a mini fireworks display, and I heard bangbangbangbangbang and there might have been one more, I can't remember. who's counting when someone is shooting? not ME! I am just driving on with my hands on those 911 digits. I freaked out because it was about fifty feet away from me and I did not fucking use my head. I SAW those fucking kids crossing the highway while I was sitting at the light and I did not use my FUCKING head and realize what was going to happen. I KNOW BETTER!! I LIVE HERE, have lived here forever and I knew what was going to happen I just didn't fucking use my head and honest it really could have cost me. What if someone got hurt? Well I will know about it soon enough cuz i gave the fuzz my info and they will prolly call me if someone died and they need a witnessy. Fanfuckingtastic. Ah well. It's just fucked up because that EXACT spot that my car was in, that exact fucking spot down to the inches, was where I was when the mullos attacked my car. I am not driving over there anymore, that's for sure. Okay well I'm over it now. Just thought you should know and all how I am enjoying my fairy world where kids don't have guns. Pinches culeros, ustedes.
Posted by anonymous at April 17, 2008 9:14 PMUgh. That would get inside my head, too, and I think I would just feel sick. What a horrible thing to see.
Posted by: at April 18, 2008 5:29 AMYep. Read in the paper yesterday that someone was indeed dead by the end of the night. I just keep seeing it over and over in my head. Blah.
Posted by: at April 19, 2008 4:44 PMGet it out, N. (I think.) Vent. It will do you no good to obsess on it. Talk about it to anyone who will listen. Write about it here. But get it out of your head. I think you've been through a very frightening experience, one that would make anyone reflect on the fragility of life and their own mortality. The more you talk it out, the sooner you will be able to push it to the back of your mind. I'm sure there are resources on campus for you to turn to; use them.
How sad that civilation seems to be reversing itself.
Posted by: at April 20, 2008 6:59 AMUm, that would be "civilization." My bad.
Posted by: at April 20, 2008 7:00 AMEh. I'm okay with civilation. It sounds kind of like "elation" which is cool.
Well I have been talking about it a little. I mentioned it in a survey i posted on myspace lol. I'm actually okay aside from having slight panic reactions when im out in my car. I see the gunfire in my head and I do think about how these things can happen anywhere at any time and kind of panic. But it goes away. I just try and think about shopping instead.
Posted by: at April 20, 2008 8:24 PMoh and yes you were right, it's me.
Posted by: at April 20, 2008 8:25 PMWell, I guess you know it's the dragonlady on the other side of this conversation.
Posted by: at April 21, 2008 5:24 AMwas the culprit a negroid?
Posted by: at April 23, 2008 6:20 AMIf you were paying attention, Mr. Bear, you would know that "The Culprits" were Latinos, you know, Beaners. Most likely illegal immigrants who don't give a fuck about their neighborhood. Just a bunch of homies trying to be big bad gangbangers. In my opinion we should just let them keep killing each other. Cull the herd.
Posted by: at April 23, 2008 10:15 AMUh well actually not, LC. But thanks for for your opinion. We all know how I feel about that. But anyways I used the word "mullos" which basically means "niggers" in spanish. So there you go.
Posted by: N at April 23, 2008 10:48 AMWhether it be niggers or beaners if they are busy killing each other just let them have at it.
Try to stay clear of those places in the hood where you could get caught in the crossfire.
And a short warning to you beaners....The Niggers hate you all. You are sucking up all of the Government Cheese and putting a strain on the welfare system. You are sucking up all of the ghetto houses and free health care. Watch your wetback!
Posted by: at April 24, 2008 7:54 AMAh shut up.
Posted by: N at April 24, 2008 8:04 PM