i suck i suck i suck
i have no friends, my family hates me (Except for my little brother), i gained like 30 lbs because of the whole "Freshmen college experience", and i desperately want a boyfriend, someone who will be on my side, someone who i can snuggle with when i feel depressed, somebody who won't go against my will, somebody outside the realm of the whole family business.
im afraid ill never fnd anybody like that. sometimes i seriously think about running away and hiding myself in a ditc or something...(psht, not like anyboy will notice anyway).............
i look bad and i feel bad these days...........my future is screwed, i want to be a musician damnit...i dont care if ill live in a box, NO i dont want to be a doctor, a fucking lawyer, and whatever else is considered a luxurious occupation...i just want music in my life, and be happy associating with all kinds of artists. artists are nice people. heck, my dream is to marry an artist or even better, a musician.
nobody needs me in this world. why live? i look awful these days...i guess i have to go through the whole "starve yourself, eat only 1 apple everyday ordeal"........ugh,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
kill me someone.