So, I emailed my family a few nights ago about moving, and they seemed really excited. I was sitting here only a few days ago crying and worried they would reject me. It's an awful thought, but it's happened way too many times, and it's the first thing that comes to mind when I ask for help. I guess it's either because I'm an idiot, or they're too selfish to help others, but my family said that because they are family, of course they would welcome me back with open arms. I feel so much better. I can't wait to go back and replant my roots. It's also an awesome thing for my boyfriend too, because he's already met them last Christmas, and everyone welcomed him. He just fit right in, just like puzzle piece. His life has been going down hill since his grandma died last year and his great aunt died just earlier this year. The christmas traditions have always been the same, until now, and now that he's met my family and made that great connection, he wants to move down and live close to my family.
I'm not too worried. I think we're in a great place in our lives to do this. I just graduated, he's already done with school and we aren't tied down to a job or anything. We're still young. I know I can find a job anywhere, and schooling isn't that hard to find, it's just money and the willpower to do it.
I'm just worried, because I am only 18 (tomorrow) and I am so young. I just hope that we make it. I don't like the fact that I've been with my boyfriend for almost 2 years, and now my family accepts him just like that! *snap* I don't want them to think we're gonna get married. I'm too young to think like that. Yes, we live together, we have sex, we do the whole shabang! But it's too close to living like "husband and wife". I don't like it.
I donno. I like it. I do, but then again, I don't. I hate the idea of being tied down to someone for the rest of my life.
I love him. He's the best thing that's happened to me, and I can't imagine my life without anyone else right now, it's just when everyone see us, they always ask if we're married yet, or that we should be married, and it's hard to just ignore them.
The only thing I can try to do now is take our relationship a day at a time. We've taken our slow, even though we had sex in the first week. Hey! I figured it'd be a summer fling! But now we've been together for [almost] 2 years, and I'm having visions of wedding dresses, big diamond rings, and kids. That scares the shit outta me.
I know that I DO NOT want to get married unless I can drink.
I'm NOT having children until I'm at least 25.
And I REFUSE to even get engaged before I'm 20.
I just wish everyone else could agree with me. I'm tired of everyone expecting us to spend the rest our lives together. I'm only 18 (tomorrow) and that scares me.
I just want to move into my "adult" life and be me.
I don't know where that came from..
Whatever.
Upon other news, I'm getting a tattoo tomorrow.
Yay!
Stick to your guns, girl. Don't let anyone push you off your timetable. Yes, you are far too young to be getting married and/or having kids, and I'm surprised that your fam is so eager to marry you off that when you move back home, you can bring the boyfriend with you.
Careful about that tattoo---get something meaningful. Sixty year old women look downright stupid with Tweety Bird or Tasmanian Devil tats.
Posted by: at July 10, 2008 7:55 AMSo many people get tattoos now, I don't think the whole "when you're 60..." argument means the same thing anymore. And this coming from a 30+ someone who never had a tattoo and never plans to have one. It just doesn't have the same stigma it used to...
T
Posted by: T at July 15, 2008 12:42 PMmake sure HE knows how you feel!!
Posted by: at September 10, 2008 1:44 PM