I'm 22 years old. For 4 years now I've been stuck in my bedroom unable to anything because I've been so depressed. Since I was 16 I pushed away friends until now I have noone. I've already tried and failed, miserable I might add (obviously) to commit suicide. I'm just so unhappy. All I think I really need is a friend. If only there was one person who truely cared about me that didn't 'have to' because of blood ties...
I've been drinking.
I think it's time to go...
Posted by anonymous at July 20, 2008 6:55 AMHi. You're my age. And like staying in your bedroom. We have these things in common. I can be your friend.
Posted by: N at July 21, 2008 3:39 PMBloody hell.
Posted by: at July 23, 2008 2:27 AMHow can you find a friend if you won't come out of your bedroom? I suppose that by drinking, you could find yourself an imaginary friend, but that is, of course, not the answer. Obviously, you need help, as in medical intervention. Call your local Health Department; they often provide mental health services with fees based on your ability to pay. (I recall that when my daughter was on unemployment and recovering from a crack addicition, she paid $2.00 per visit, and meds were provided free of charge.)
IMHO, the reason your suicide attempt failed is that you don't really want to die. You want help. Start by asking the people who "have to love you because of family ties." You know what? Your family does NOT have to love you. Be grateful that they do, because family who love you is the most precious thing a person can have.
Loyal Kody follower
Posted by: at July 23, 2008 8:04 AMWell, a couple of things. 1) get out of your room and go see a doctor. Medicine can help some people. Maybe not everyone, but it did help me. 2) It took me awhile but I came to realize that I didn't really WANT friends, which is why I never made too many. Friends expect you to do things you might not want to do. Like leave your room when you don't really feel like it. I'm a woman, and I realized that girlfriends often want to talk on the phone, go shopping, and expect you to remember their birthdays. I can't/won't/don't want to do any of these things. And boyfriends, well, usually they want to be more than just friends. So as I got older I came to see that I wasn't doing much to make friends... because underneath it all, I didn't want them.
I don't blame you for feeling the way you do. I struggled a lot when I was young. So I can relate. I eventually managed to find a spouse, whom I love, and that is enough for me. That could happen for you too; you are still very very young and life holds a lot in store.
One last piece of advice. At this point in your life, don't look for people who care about you; look for people that you care about... you might find someone who needs you, which would be something good for you right now.
Posted by: jill at July 23, 2008 8:43 PMwhy are you depressed? did something happen? If your just depressed for no reason then doesnt that mean its just something inside your head telling you to be sad and miserbale, your in control of your life your in control of yourself, all you have to do is stand up say to your self "ive had enough" have a warm bath relaxing bath put on your best clothes, fix your hair up have your favourite meal and walk out of that door, not leaving exactly but destroying those sad horrible lonely miserbale feelings behind you. Join somewhere like night school if your not in education or get a job you will meet new people and say yes to any new opportunity that comes your way, your 22, youve got so much ahead of you, be happy tomorrow and start you life=]
Posted by: anon at July 25, 2008 7:53 AMSHIT NIGGA!! GETCHO BLACK ASS OUTTA TAHT RHOOM AND INTO LIFE, SUCKA!!!
I BE WAILING ON THESE NIGGAZ IN DAH HOLMES AND THEY BE LIKE "THE WHITE MAN OPPRESS MAH ASS AND I AIN'T BE COMING UP IN DIS WHITE MAN'S WORLD"
I SAY FUCK THAT, NIGGA!!!
YOU YOUNG. YOU HEALTHY.
GET OUT THERE AND LIVE!
Posted by: NEGRO at July 30, 2008 1:43 AM