I'm really happy the password and sign-in were reset. it's always nice to be able to come to this page and just type out what's on my mind. be back later.
I have a new favorite song. After many years of listening to U2, I have just acquired the maturity to understand the true meaning behind "Where the streets have no name," and "With or Without You"
They're really beautiful songs with a very strong meaning and emotion behind both of them.
this is my first post to anonyblog. i live in florida and i can play the blues on a nose flute and write with my feet.
i also like cheese, onions, candle-lit lunches, rattlesnakes, vitamin B, and No Doubt.
thank you for your time.
Starting from the beginning:
A: My first love. I know I handled things badly, and that was what ruined us.
S (Part 1): I don't know what happened, we came together so easily, and just as quickly, it was gone. I can't help but think it might have been me. I guess we'll never know.
J (Part 1): You always felt you were too young for me, and much as I tried, I couldn't convince you that we were right for each other.
J2 (Part 1): We were never together, and you were my best friend. Yet somehow, we found ourselves together that night in the basement, and I'll never forget it.
T: No matter how many times I could apologize for the way I treated you, in my heart, it will never be enough. I know you've forgiven me, and our relationship is great now, but I'll still always have that lingering feeling, knowing that I did you wrong.
A: Our time together was so short, but I feel that with the distance, and our varying lifestyles, we could have never made it work.
J (Part 2): You thought you had me by a string. I even left her for you, but how could I have known there was such a conniving heart behind those big beautiful tits of yours. You fucked me over hard, and as much as I have fond memories of the times we had together, I'll always remember that, and never be able to trust you again.
J2 (Part 2): Amazing, the relationship I never thought we could have. My best friend had become my lover, and we could still be friends afterward. My only friend with benefits, and it actually worked well for the both of us. As my friend, I love you, and I always will.
S (Part 2): I don't know what it was that went wrong with your head, but I hope you get/got it fixed. The person I knew then, and the person I know now are so far removed, that it's hard for me to digest. I understand you had a hard life, and you want to distance yourself from where you came from. But to treat the people who supported you the way we did, the way you did, is just completely unconscionable.
M: You WERE too young for me, and I knew it. Yet, I couldn't force myself to not be with you. Though our ages were not so far apart, our maturity levels were (and probably still are) far far apart. I hope you got yourself some counseling in the end, and that it helped you to see who you are. There's a beautiful person in there somewhere, I just hope you found her.
T (Part 1): You saved my life, and for that, I'll forever be grateful. Thank you for understanding when I needed distance for a while.
S2: Whoever your therapist is/was, they need to be shot, because they weren't doing you, or anyone around you any good at all. Of course, I'm sure you probably failed to mention your own control issues in your sessions, and stayed focused on your interpretation of the wrongdoing of others. I haven't heard from you in quite a while, and I'm sure that's a very good thing.
T (Part2): I love you, and I always will. And that's a good thing.